Who am I? I guess that is the big question and something I am trying to figure out. I use to know who I was. Maybe I use to think I knew who I was. I was an artist a musician a poet a gamer. Now I am none of those. Through a series of bad relationships and bad life choices I lost all those parts of me. I can’t draw or paint to save my life and my guitar cases have been opened in years. As for writing the only words I have let fall from my mind to “paper” in over five years is this blog.
Lets lay out what I do know about myself.
I am a vegan. I started out as just a vegetarian a couple of years ago I just couldn’t give up the dairy. I started this for purely health reasons. I wanted to lose weight because I was almost 400 pounds. Ok I actually probably was that weight. I don’t like to admit that though. Well I didn’t really lose any weight because I was still filling myself with fat from all the dairy. February 26, 2016 I was laid off from my job and hit a very low point in my life I need to fully clean my life out and get healthier. I hate to admit it but looks do matter in this world. Companies are more likely to hire someone of around an “average” weight than they are an obese person. It sucks but it is true. So I switch to a fully vegan diet now it started just for health reason but as the weight started to fall off of me it became so much more. I started to not see the purpose for using animals for anything in my life I mean animals should be free. Don’t get me wrong I am not one of those people who if you are not vegan I am going to berate you for eating meat that is not the case everyone can choose to be whatever they want. Now when it comes to weight loss I will always preach that being vegan worked best for me. Between February of 2o16 and February of 2017 I had lost 105 lbs. Now was about 375 pounds when I made the vegan switch now I am 260. I haven’t hit my goal weight yet but I am getting there and I am happy about that. Probably the only thing in my life that I am really happy about.
That brings me to the point of this blog. This is a place for me to get the sadness that plagues me out in the open. Even if no one reads this I am ok with it. If someone does read this I want them to know that they are not alone in the sadness in the dark feelings and to know that I love them. I love everyone. I refuse to let my life be run by sadness and hate anymore. This is a place where I want to heal I want us all to heal together.
Love each other.